Thursday, November 30, 2006

Remeber Kids...

More poems!

In continuing with what I started let's move on to the next year, 1990.


I think my skills improved a bit, I wrote a total of 30 poems that year. Some of them however were reworks form the previous year though.

Here are a few of them, enjoy.

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Walden Woods

I walked through these wood over and over
Light flashes through the trees
Leaves crunch beneath my feet as I watch colors go by

I sit and write it all down
As birds lull my head to the ground
Were I must lay
My head again and again

Now I can’t let it die
Can’t let it all be torn down
Now it has been hear for a very long time
What’s wrong with you
It’s all I have now
Why can’t you just live here in peace

With out tearing it down

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Too Close

Stepping closer and closer
To each other’s way of life
Trying to live for the other
Even when it’s not right

Going to and fro
From homes of ice
To home of fire
But still we never get burned

To close to each other
We almost touched
To close to each other
Se almost spoke
To close to each other
We almost tried to communicate

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Remember

A tear drops onto the floor
As so many thoughts run through my mind
Of things we shared
Of things gone by

I stop and think of what went wrong
I stop and think of what it was
That kept us all
That stopped us all
From growing stronger between ourselves

You’ve gone away now
And I can’t see you
But in my mind and my heart
You’ll be there to the end of time

I stop and think of it all
I stop and think of it all
Till it all goes away

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LISTEN

Voices that come my way
A blurry message seem fade
I try to communicate
But it won’t come clear

Try and pay attention to it
But I can’t come in contact
With what it has to say
To me and you

Listen-
We all have a message
We all must talk aloud
To say what we must to feel proud
Random voices are always frayed
To many things for me to see
I can’t understand anymore
Of what they have to say

Listen-
We all have a message
We all must talk aloud

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Mislayings

Why can’t you see
Why can’t you hear

You played you charades
With your so called friends
But they have always seen through
You little stuck-up disguise

You knew it was coming
But you didn’t change it
Well now look at you
Here’s your reward for all you’ve done

There was a big bang
Then your mind slipped
You took the easy way out of it
And now you’re gone

Now there is no more you
And we can’t live with it
Because you could have asked
For us to hear it out

But I still have one question for you
Why was there a change of idea
In such a perfect life

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Funny Cat pic of the day

I guess he didn't want his paws to get full of snow...



My X-Mas List

If any of you out there are feeling extra generous this year here is my x-mas list:

Online Christmas List

Just do a search for "Lanacan" to find it.

Music catch up

I love music...well I love the music I like. There is music out there I can't stand, but that is neither here nor there.

Ok...on to the point, I've known for some time now that I'm seriously lacking in keeping up to date with the music I like. So being that it's close to x-mas and I can't think of anything else I want for x-mas I decided to put some cds I wanted up on my wish list at amazon.com (yes, I use amazon for music, it's just easy for people to buy from).

Surprisingly almost all of the bands I could think of at the time were available there. What makes it a surprise is that I do not listen to big mainstream bands, a lot of the stuff I listen to is form Chicago, DC, or local based bands.

In my search I come across a cd by a band I wanted to check out a long time ago but always forgot to get their cd. The band's name was 'antarctica'. I must say I like them. They remind me of some 80's bands but they are still good.

They released an EP and Full length CDs, but sadly only the full length is available now (they came out in 1998/1999...told you I was behind!!).

I'm sooo jealous....

Picture says it all....

Old Poems

I was just organizing my thumb drive so that I could put some work files onto it. I was side tracked by some old poems I came across.


I started writing in 1989. My first year in High school.

Looking back on it now I can say I had no clue on what I was doing, I remember trying to make them more like song lyrics because I use to want to start a band back then (I actually was in three bands but that's another story for a later time).


Here is a few that I wrote out of the total of 33 for the year, don't laugh to hard, these are really old and I was young and clueless (ok..ok..I'm still cluless... ). If you want to see them all, well... I"m trying to think of a good set up for my new website and they will be there once done.

** These are copied and pasted form the original files -- Forgive the all caps on some.

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BLIND

You fool!
How can you help someone
When you can’t even help yourself
Just remove the log out of your own eye
Before you remove the speck that’s in your brother’s eye

Why won’t you open your eye’s
To see the truth
It’s in front of your face
Just don’t be blind
Especially by yourself

Yeshua want’s you now
Just don’t fight it
You know it’s the right way
Yahweh wants to care for you
You know there’s no other way
With this sightlessness

Why won’t you open your eye’s
To see the truth
It’s in front of your face
Just don’t be blind
Especially by yourself

Don’t think I’m a hypocrite
I do the best I can
Why won’t you do the same?
And just think of him

Why won’t you open your eye’s
To see the truth
It’s in front of your face
Just don’t be blind
Especially by yourself

Just don’t be blind to the light
You know you got to open your eyes
Don’t be afraid
Just open your eyes
And don’t be blind


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Words of Honor

You open your mouth
To someone or something
After the fact has happen
After the fall has fallen

Do you understand this?
Do you comprehend it?

Glory, hope, life, liberty, peace, bravery, diligence, valor
These are words of honor
Systematically spoken, spent, done.

You win big with these
Still not enough for you
So you carry on
With what you do

Do you understand this?
Do you comprehend it?

Glory, hope, life, liberty, peace, bravery, diligence, valor
These are words of honor
Systematically spoken, spent, and done.


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SEPERATION

COME BACK TO THE WAY YOU ONCE WERE
COME BACK TO HOW IT ONCE WAS
INVICIBLE, UNSTOPABLE
WHAT HAPPEN TO US

DIFFERENCES IN THOUGHTS
TEAR EACH OTHER APART
DIFFERENCES IN MINDS
TEAR FRIENDSHIPS AWAY

WORDS EXCHANGED
WORDS THAT HURT
WORDS THAT DAMAGE
WORDS THAT SCAR

COME BACK TO THE WAY YOU ONCE WERE
COME BACK TO HOW IT ONCE WAS
INVICIBLE, UNSTOPABLE
WHAT HAPPEN TO US

DIFFERENCES IN THOUGHTS
TEAR EACH OTHER APART
DIFFERENCES IN MINDS
TEAR FRIENDSHIPS AWAY

ACTION PUSHED OUT AND OVER TO
ACTIONS THAT BRUSE
ACTIONS THAT BREAK
ACTIONS THAT SHATTER


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P.A.P

Preachers against preachers
People against people
I’m sick of all this fighting
I’m sick of all this war
It’s all too much for me

Preachers against preachers
Men of the cloth not true believers
Those fuss and fight
And think they’re right
All they want
Is to get rich quick
And condemn us all
As lunatics

People against people
Preachers against preachers
It’s just too much for me
I’m sick of all this war
It’s all too much for me

People against people
Those of you who watch t.v.
And get these racist views
Against you and me
And fight for what
They think is right
Without reason
To believe it’s not truth

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Comments

You ask the same questions
But I have different answers
You don’t believe in differences
Of each other’s point of views

Don’t you tell me I am wrong
Don’t you tell me you are right
You know you have to
Find the answers yourself

Don’t you do it alone
You need some one too
To give you another point of view
On what you are facing now.

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Best Site Ever!

I seriously was laughing my ass of looking at most of these!

http://lolcats.com/

Rain rain... go the F**()(* Away!!

Ok it's the end of November and I live in WI.

Where is my three feet of snow dammit!

I'm sick of this rainy weather we are having.

Monday, November 27, 2006

I love cats...especially funny pics of them

A repost...

~~I posted this to a different blog, but not everyone could see it... I was reading it and I still feel the same way today eve though this was written a few months ago.~~


I was sitting here during my lunch at work reflecting on a few things going on in my mind. My mood is pretty even keeled but it got me remembering something from my past.

A few years ago I stopped writing. I use to be a pretty prolific writer of poetry and short stories. To this day I have no idea why I stopped but one thing is certain that I still remember some of the poems I wrote. Sometime ago on a whim I submitted an old poem I wrote to poetry.com for a contest and was one of the fortunate people to get the poem published that year because of it. It was really cool to have that happen.

Funny thing is that the poem I wrote started to go through my head while I sat here thinking so I though Id share it with all of you.



Its pretty close on to how I feel at the moment about all thats happening in my life.



Lollipops and Red Balloons

It comes and goes
This feeling of insecurity just grows
The pain and hurt
Passes by when I try to find the cure


When I was a boy I never dreamed
Of these kind of days
Adults never knew why
We didn't try to understand life through their eyes
Nothing ever mattered to us but candy and smiles


Lollipops and red balloons
Sleeping in until almost noon
Nothing seemed to phase me in those days
Not a care to damage me in any way
But now it seems that I'm too aware
Of what my surroundings are here
In my room alone. . . .

Jason E. Brewer
Copyright ©2006 Jason E. Brewer




This poem is a reflection of how I felt when looked back on my life after reaching a troubling period of my life and how I turn to my childhood memories for solace in troubled times. It was not until that point in my life that I realized why adults try to tell children about responsibility in the hopes to better prepare them for the ups and downs that come with adulthood. As children, we only want to have fun but as we grow older we realize that life is not all about having fun.




Here is a direct link on poetry.com: http://www.poetry.com/Publications/display.asp?ID=P5368229&BN=AAI&PN=1

So I finaly made this....

I've been trying to make one of these for a few years now. Just goes to show you that I tend to forget some things and it takes me a ling time to get back to them.

Yeah I'm using a wysiwyg blog editor... I'm to busy to really make one that suits me better.


Not that I think many people will be by to read this... (yeah for pessimism!!)

However I just wanted to have a place to put up random stuff so here I am.