Some advice I need to follow!

 

Study: Too Much Technology Has Destroyed Our Ability To Sleep

Seriously for years I’ve had sleep problems… of course having a bad back didn’t help either.

Frikken Hippies....

Ok I'm all for saving the environment but come on... these people go way to far. I think they need meds...

Salad Days by Minor Threat

Wishing for the days
When I first wore this suit
Baby has grown older,
It's no longer cute
Too many voices
They've made me mute
Baby has grown older,
It's no longer cute

But I stay on, I stay on
Where do I get off?
On to greener pastures
The core has gotten soft

Look at us today
We've gotten soft and fat
Waiting for the moment,
It's just not coming back
So serious
About the stuff we lack
Dwell upon our memories
But there are no facts

Reflection

A friend once said when he looked inside me that it's like everything that I once was is locked away in a black box and shoved deep into a corner of my soul.

Honestly I don't think he was far off. I'm currently going through therapy to sort out a lot of things that I have issues with in life. One of the goals is to regain what I felt has been lost due to years of being depressed.

He also said that I need to find the right key to open it back up.

I'm still trying to figure out what this key is. I hope I can find it through my therapy.

Honestly, if I can open this "box" inside of me I know a lot of things will fall into place and I will finally be able to amend things and get on with my life.

People are morons...

Ok so I live in the wonderful state do Wisconsin... no really it's not that bad of a state, if you like cows, cheese, beer, and sports... consequently... I only like 2 of those, cheese and beer... I think it's time to move. :p


Anyways here in my lovely state we do get snow, mine you not as much as say Canada or upstate NY (who got firkin 11 feet over this past weekend). Last night it snowed about 4 inches, now we haven't gotten a lot of snow this year so I will give some leniency because it’s like having the first snow fall of the year again.

However… what the hell is wrong with the people that think they can still drive 80mph down the highway? This is why I normally stay home and VPN into work. You would think that people would slow down a little while driving this morning… nope… notta…they just hauled ass right along… it was stupid.


On my drive into work I saw 4 cars in the ditch, 2 accidents and almost was in one myself thanks to asshole jumping lanes in heavy traffic and sliding all over the place because of how stupid he was for driving like that in slick conditions.


Ugh… I just hope that it will be a better drive home

All Done...

Well I have managed to get all my CDs back into my my computer. Well on a new portable hard drive I just bought for myself. I still need to get all the music back that I have gotten from the internet, but that's not that hard to do.

So far in total 1278 Songs, 3.1 days, 6.13 GB... I know that's not really a lot considering what I've seen on other people's computers but it did take me about 30 hours to get all those dam CDs into my computer!

What's nice about that portable drive is that it's USB powered so I can take it to work and listen to all my music there as well ! So nice to do since my music is about the only thing that gets me through the day there.

Emo post of the day....

Life sucks then you die...

/wrist



Ever have one of those bad days where you brain is full full of stuff that you don't know what to do... yesterday and today are that for me...

I'm sorry if I don't give details, but I've never planed on getting that personal here.

OMG! That frikken hurt!

Yesterday was my second of three epidural steroid shots for my back pain. Last time it was done it I just did the local anesthesia and it was a quick in and out prcidure with only about 2 seconds worth of pain. No biggy.

So yesterday I was thinking it was going to be the same thing. So when I get there the nurse asks me what happened and how the pain in my back was since the fist shot. I tell her that I still had a lot of pain and that the shot only lasted about a week as well as having the same numbness issues down my right leg like I've had for a long time.

So just as I get into the procedure room the doctor tells me instead of doing a lateral epidural (in the middle of my spine to effect pain on both sides of my back) they are going to do a transference epidural. This means that instead of getting next to the nerve column like they do with the lateral epidural and just inject the steroid there, they are going to go through my right nerve trunk that goes into my right leg then inject the steroid.

I think to myself. No biggy can't hurt much worse than the last one I got... HOLY F*$&#ING WRONG!! It hurt so bad that I just about cried! due to the angle they had to place the needle (btw the first needle they used was too short!! so they had to start over with a longer one!!) i could feel pain at ever push the doctor did in between the x-ray pictures they took to guild the needle by. I'm highly tolerant to pain due to the 15+ years I've had this back problem but Jeebus H Christ that frikken hurt!

The worst thing is that I'm in more pain now due the them having to go through all the muscle on my back than I was when I went in for the shot. Not even my normal pain killers are working at the moment. I barley got any sleep last night...ugh. Luckily though I I do have a prescript to fill today that will help. It's not for my current pain but to help with the the frequent numbness in my right leg. The doctor warned me though that for the first few days only to take it at night because it will put me to sleep until my body gets use to it then i get to take it twice a day! lol

My X-Mas List

If any of you out there are feeling extra generous this year here is my x-mas list:

Online Christmas List

Just do a search for "Lanacan" to find it.