Thursday, November 30, 2006
More poems!
In continuing with what I started let's move on to the next year, 1990.
I think my skills improved a bit, I wrote a total of 30 poems that year. Some of them however were reworks form the previous year though.
Here are a few of them, enjoy.
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Walden Woods
Too Close
LISTEN
Mislayings
I think my skills improved a bit, I wrote a total of 30 poems that year. Some of them however were reworks form the previous year though.
Here are a few of them, enjoy.
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Walden Woods
I walked through these wood over and over
Light flashes through the trees
Leaves crunch beneath my feet as I watch colors go by
I sit and write it all down
As birds lull my head to the ground
Were I must lay
My head again and again
Now I can’t let it die
Can’t let it all be torn down
Now it has been hear for a very long time
What’s wrong with you
It’s all I have now
Why can’t you just live here in peace
With out tearing it down
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Stepping closer and closer
To each other’s way of life
Trying to live for the other
Even when it’s not right
Going to and fro
From homes of ice
To home of fire
But still we never get burned
To close to each other
We almost touched
To close to each other
Se almost spoke
To close to each other
We almost tried to communicate
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Remember
A tear drops onto the floor
As so many thoughts run through my mind
Of things we shared
Of things gone by
I stop and think of what went wrong
I stop and think of what it was
That kept us all
That stopped us all
From growing stronger between ourselves
You’ve gone away now
And I can’t see you
But in my mind and my heart
You’ll be there to the end of time
I stop and think of it all
I stop and think of it all
Till it all goes away
LISTEN
Voices that come my way
A blurry message seem fade
I try to communicate
But it won’t come clear
Try and pay attention to it
But I can’t come in contact
With what it has to say
To me and you
Listen-
We all have a message
We all must talk aloud
To say what we must to feel proud
Random voices are always frayed
To many things for me to see
I can’t understand anymore
Of what they have to say
Listen-
We all have a message
We all must talk aloud
Mislayings
Why can’t you see
Why can’t you hear
You played you charades
With your so called friends
But they have always seen through
You little stuck-up disguise
You knew it was coming
But you didn’t change it
Well now look at you
Here’s your reward for all you’ve done
There was a big bang
Then your mind slipped
You took the easy way out of it
And now you’re gone
Now there is no more you
And we can’t live with it
Because you could have asked
For us to hear it out
But I still have one question for you
Why was there a change of idea
In such a perfect life
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
My X-Mas List
If any of you out there are feeling extra generous this year here is my x-mas list:
Online Christmas List
Just do a search for "Lanacan" to find it.
Online Christmas List
Just do a search for "Lanacan" to find it.
Music catch up
I love music...well I love the music I like. There is music out there I can't stand, but that is neither here nor there.
Ok...on to the point, I've known for some time now that I'm seriously lacking in keeping up to date with the music I like. So being that it's close to x-mas and I can't think of anything else I want for x-mas I decided to put some cds I wanted up on my wish list at amazon.com (yes, I use amazon for music, it's just easy for people to buy from).
Surprisingly almost all of the bands I could think of at the time were available there. What makes it a surprise is that I do not listen to big mainstream bands, a lot of the stuff I listen to is form Chicago, DC, or local based bands.
In my search I come across a cd by a band I wanted to check out a long time ago but always forgot to get their cd. The band's name was 'antarctica'. I must say I like them. They remind me of some 80's bands but they are still good.
They released an EP and Full length CDs, but sadly only the full length is available now (they came out in 1998/1999...told you I was behind!!).
Ok...on to the point, I've known for some time now that I'm seriously lacking in keeping up to date with the music I like. So being that it's close to x-mas and I can't think of anything else I want for x-mas I decided to put some cds I wanted up on my wish list at amazon.com (yes, I use amazon for music, it's just easy for people to buy from).
Surprisingly almost all of the bands I could think of at the time were available there. What makes it a surprise is that I do not listen to big mainstream bands, a lot of the stuff I listen to is form Chicago, DC, or local based bands.
In my search I come across a cd by a band I wanted to check out a long time ago but always forgot to get their cd. The band's name was 'antarctica'. I must say I like them. They remind me of some 80's bands but they are still good.
They released an EP and Full length CDs, but sadly only the full length is available now (they came out in 1998/1999...told you I was behind!!).
Old Poems
I was just organizing my thumb drive so that I could put some work files onto it. I was side tracked by some old poems I came across.
I started writing in 1989. My first year in High school.
Looking back on it now I can say I had no clue on what I was doing, I remember trying to make them more like song lyrics because I use to want to start a band back then (I actually was in three bands but that's another story for a later time).
Here is a few that I wrote out of the total of 33 for the year, don't laugh to hard, these are really old and I was young and clueless (ok..ok..I'm still cluless... ). If you want to see them all, well... I"m trying to think of a good set up for my new website and they will be there once done.
** These are copied and pasted form the original files -- Forgive the all caps on some.
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BLIND
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Words of Honor
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SEPERATION
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P.A.P
Comments
I started writing in 1989. My first year in High school.
Looking back on it now I can say I had no clue on what I was doing, I remember trying to make them more like song lyrics because I use to want to start a band back then (I actually was in three bands but that's another story for a later time).
Here is a few that I wrote out of the total of 33 for the year, don't laugh to hard, these are really old and I was young and clueless (ok..ok..I'm still cluless... ). If you want to see them all, well... I"m trying to think of a good set up for my new website and they will be there once done.
** These are copied and pasted form the original files -- Forgive the all caps on some.
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BLIND
You fool!
How can you help someone
When you can’t even help yourself
Just remove the log out of your own eye
Before you remove the speck that’s in your brother’s eye
Why won’t you open your eye’s
To see the truth
It’s in front of your face
Just don’t be blind
Especially by yourself
Yeshua want’s you now
Just don’t fight it
You know it’s the right way
Yahweh wants to care for you
You know there’s no other way
With this sightlessness
Why won’t you open your eye’s
To see the truth
It’s in front of your face
Just don’t be blind
Especially by yourself
Don’t think I’m a hypocrite
I do the best I can
Why won’t you do the same?
And just think of him
Why won’t you open your eye’s
To see the truth
It’s in front of your face
Just don’t be blind
Especially by yourself
Just don’t be blind to the light
You know you got to open your eyes
Don’t be afraid
Just open your eyes
And don’t be blind
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Words of Honor
You open your mouth
To someone or something
After the fact has happen
After the fall has fallen
Do you understand this?
Do you comprehend it?
Glory, hope, life, liberty, peace, bravery, diligence, valor
These are words of honor
Systematically spoken, spent, done.
You win big with these
Still not enough for you
So you carry on
With what you do
Do you understand this?
Do you comprehend it?
Glory, hope, life, liberty, peace, bravery, diligence, valor
These are words of honor
Systematically spoken, spent, and done.
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SEPERATION
COME BACK TO THE WAY YOU ONCE WERE
COME BACK TO HOW IT ONCE WAS
INVICIBLE, UNSTOPABLE
WHAT HAPPEN TO US
DIFFERENCES IN THOUGHTS
TEAR EACH OTHER APART
DIFFERENCES IN MINDS
TEAR FRIENDSHIPS AWAY
WORDS EXCHANGED
WORDS THAT HURT
WORDS THAT DAMAGE
WORDS THAT SCAR
COME BACK TO THE WAY YOU ONCE WERE
COME BACK TO HOW IT ONCE WAS
INVICIBLE, UNSTOPABLE
WHAT HAPPEN TO US
DIFFERENCES IN THOUGHTS
TEAR EACH OTHER APART
DIFFERENCES IN MINDS
TEAR FRIENDSHIPS AWAY
ACTION PUSHED OUT AND OVER TO
ACTIONS THAT BRUSE
ACTIONS THAT BREAK
ACTIONS THAT SHATTER
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P.A.P
Preachers against preachers
People against people
I’m sick of all this fighting
I’m sick of all this war
It’s all too much for me
Preachers against preachers
Men of the cloth not true believers
Those fuss and fight
And think they’re right
All they want
Is to get rich quick
And condemn us all
As lunatics
People against people
Preachers against preachers
It’s just too much for me
I’m sick of all this war
It’s all too much for me
People against people
Those of you who watch t.v.
And get these racist views
Against you and me
And fight for what
They think is right
Without reason
To believe it’s not truth
Comments
You ask the same questions
But I have different answers
You don’t believe in differences
Of each other’s point of views
Don’t you tell me I am wrong
Don’t you tell me you are right
You know you have to
Find the answers yourself
Don’t you do it alone
You need some one too
To give you another point of view
On what you are facing now.
Rain rain... go the F**()(* Away!!
Ok it's the end of November and I live in WI.
Where is my three feet of snow dammit!
I'm sick of this rainy weather we are having.
Where is my three feet of snow dammit!
I'm sick of this rainy weather we are having.
Monday, November 27, 2006
A repost...
~~I posted this to a different blog, but not everyone could see it... I was reading it and I still feel the same way today eve though this was written a few months ago.~~
I was sitting here during my lunch at work reflecting on a few things going on in my mind. My mood is pretty even keeled but it got me remembering something from my past.
A few years ago I stopped writing. I use to be a pretty prolific writer of poetry and short stories. To this day I have no idea why I stopped but one thing is certain that I still remember some of the poems I wrote. Sometime ago on a whim I submitted an old poem I wrote to poetry.com for a contest and was one of the fortunate people to get the poem published that year because of it. It was really cool to have that happen.
Funny thing is that the poem I wrote started to go through my head while I sat here thinking so I though Id share it with all of you.
Its pretty close on to how I feel at the moment about all thats happening in my life.
Lollipops and Red Balloons
It comes and goes
This feeling of insecurity just grows
The pain and hurt
Passes by when I try to find the cure
When I was a boy I never dreamed
Of these kind of days
Adults never knew why
We didn't try to understand life through their eyes
Nothing ever mattered to us but candy and smiles
Lollipops and red balloons
Sleeping in until almost noon
Nothing seemed to phase me in those days
Not a care to damage me in any way
But now it seems that I'm too aware
Of what my surroundings are here
In my room alone. . . .
Jason E. Brewer
Copyright ©2006 Jason E. Brewer
This poem is a reflection of how I felt when looked back on my life after reaching a troubling period of my life and how I turn to my childhood memories for solace in troubled times. It was not until that point in my life that I realized why adults try to tell children about responsibility in the hopes to better prepare them for the ups and downs that come with adulthood. As children, we only want to have fun but as we grow older we realize that life is not all about having fun.
Here is a direct link on poetry.com: http://www.poetry.com/Publications/display.asp?ID=P5368229&BN=AAI&PN=1
I was sitting here during my lunch at work reflecting on a few things going on in my mind. My mood is pretty even keeled but it got me remembering something from my past.
A few years ago I stopped writing. I use to be a pretty prolific writer of poetry and short stories. To this day I have no idea why I stopped but one thing is certain that I still remember some of the poems I wrote. Sometime ago on a whim I submitted an old poem I wrote to poetry.com for a contest and was one of the fortunate people to get the poem published that year because of it. It was really cool to have that happen.
Funny thing is that the poem I wrote started to go through my head while I sat here thinking so I though Id share it with all of you.
Its pretty close on to how I feel at the moment about all thats happening in my life.
Lollipops and Red Balloons
It comes and goes
This feeling of insecurity just grows
The pain and hurt
Passes by when I try to find the cure
When I was a boy I never dreamed
Of these kind of days
Adults never knew why
We didn't try to understand life through their eyes
Nothing ever mattered to us but candy and smiles
Lollipops and red balloons
Sleeping in until almost noon
Nothing seemed to phase me in those days
Not a care to damage me in any way
But now it seems that I'm too aware
Of what my surroundings are here
In my room alone. . . .
Jason E. Brewer
Copyright ©2006 Jason E. Brewer
This poem is a reflection of how I felt when looked back on my life after reaching a troubling period of my life and how I turn to my childhood memories for solace in troubled times. It was not until that point in my life that I realized why adults try to tell children about responsibility in the hopes to better prepare them for the ups and downs that come with adulthood. As children, we only want to have fun but as we grow older we realize that life is not all about having fun.
Here is a direct link on poetry.com: http://www.poetry.com/Publications/display.asp?ID=P5368229&BN=AAI&PN=1
So I finaly made this....
I've been trying to make one of these for a few years now. Just goes to show you that I tend to forget some things and it takes me a ling time to get back to them.
Yeah I'm using a wysiwyg blog editor... I'm to busy to really make one that suits me better.
Not that I think many people will be by to read this... (yeah for pessimism!!)
However I just wanted to have a place to put up random stuff so here I am.
Yeah I'm using a wysiwyg blog editor... I'm to busy to really make one that suits me better.
Not that I think many people will be by to read this... (yeah for pessimism!!)
However I just wanted to have a place to put up random stuff so here I am.
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